My journal

When I first started writing the journal, it was weird since I'm not an open person so the fact that I had to work with my first thoughts and go straight to the jugular was a strange thing for me to do. I've had journals before, but I couldn't discipline myself to write in them. I always thought it was a waste of my time and that it didn't contribute anything to my life. Through the process of writing this journal I've learned that writing is a good pleasant way to know yourself better. I figured out that my best thoughts come at night and when I'm on a desk better than any other place. I also learned that I cannot write in the morning. My mind is totally blank, full of hate and complains. I thought I hated writing that maybe it was not my "thing" and that I would be bored of it after the first week I started the journal. And suddenly, I found myself writing in public places, shutting everything in the background and just writing my soul out in the notebook. As of today, I have 35 entrees, which is great considering I started the journal later than everyone else and I don’t think I will stop writing in it. I really like having a place to express my feelings and see how my mind works. At first it was hard to follow all the rules, because I over think a lot and it was hard not to stop writing and letting every first thought in the pages. But after a while, it got easier and now it’s something I can do naturally. I believe its impressive to read what you've written, if you follow the rules, and observing how your mind works and how personal you can get if you do not resist yourself in writing what you are actually feeling. So I encourage anybody who reads this to keep a journal, and at least write in it 10 minutes a day, every day and you will learn so much about how your mind works and your real emotions at that moment. For example, one time I was pretending I was fine with everything, that I was alright and that the situation that had happened to me had not affected me in any way. And after that, I started writing in the journal with this sentence “Today, I'm feeling fine (…)” and at the end of that journal I figured out how mad, hurt and sad I was. I wrote 5 pages on how mad and disappointed I was. I would've never admitted that to myself if it wasn't that I was writing non-stopping and eventually it came to me admitting that I was not fine at all. So as you can see, writing in the journal can be a really helpful way to stay true to yourself.